ironic...

I have been thinking on what I should be doing in my life… I have always been worried of what’s going to happen tomorrow, next week, next month… next year… I always consider the things I have on hand… When I was younger, way way younger… I envisioned myself to be successful at 25. I pictured myself in expensive clothes, driving a classy car and earning a lot of money. When I was in college, I was still optimistic, but when I finished college, I got realistic. My meager salary is just enough to survive. No extra cent to make me enjoy life. I then moved to another company where the pay is better but what you’ve learned in college is insignificant. All those years of going to school and keeping myself sane in the midst of exams, papers, reports, productions, etc… etc… down the drain. Life indeed is very ironic.

Once upon a time, I dreamt of having a life full of flowers and color. Now, I’m just wondering how I’ll be able to make my current job a better career. Don’t get me wrong, I like my current job. It might be poles apart from what I was imagined but I am enjoying it plus it pays well. I get to pay my own bills and go out whenever I want to. I enjoy the independent life but then there comes a day wherein you’re not doing anything and you get to think of what have you been doing all these years. You start to wonder if it’s all worth it. Is this what you really want to do for the rest of your life? Then, depression comes in…

Love Month

It’s the love month…

I was watching the late night news last night and it was weird watching the news about the local government giving warnings on motels to not allow “short time” on Valentine’s Day. Call me overly romantic or impossibly conservative but I still think that Valentine’s Day is a day for people who are in love and no in lust.

People who are in love are not supposed to be going to motels for “short time”. There’s more to expressing love than spending it enclosed a room where people’s objective is just to get laid, right? I have this weird concept of motels… I really hope that people can think of alternative ways of celebrating Valentine’s Day.

Happy Love Month!

happy new year...

"Everything has its Season, Everything has its time… Rivers belong where they can ramble… Eagles belong where they can fly. I’ve got to be where my spirit can run free… Gotta find my corner of the Sky…” – Stephen Schwartz, “Pippin”
Another year has passed and now… it’s 2007. Time flies so fast that it justifies the popular adage, “Life is short”. Yeah, life is indeed short. I can vividly recall events that happened ages ago as if they just happened last week. I can even recall what my friends told me when I got my heart broken 5 years ago. I can still remember the hurt I felt and the pain that haunted me for years. Sometimes when I try to think about the events that have happened in my life in my 26 years on earth, I feel like asking, has it really been 26 years? Have I done anything worthy? Have I done anything that I can say I myself have achieved? A lot of questions arise when I think of my 26 years.

For this year, I want to do more. I want to be more. I want to… I want to… I want to make a change. I need to find the meaning that I have been trying to discover all these years. I have been blessed with wonderful parents, a good sister, great friends, good education, a decent job and fine looks (hahahaha, I think so!) but finding my corner in the sky has always been a question.
This year…. I hope I get an update. And this year I am hopeful.