It's my first "me" time for 2009. Actually, this is the first weekend since December that i don't have plans to go out. December has been a very busy month with the holidays and all the events going on that I haven't stopped to smell the flowers...
The last month of 2008 has been a whirlwind of events that I'm starting to analyze just now. I need to stop and think what the hell just happened???!!! A lot of things just happened in a blur that I am no longer aware what it meant or if meant anything at all.
One of the things that stuck on my mind was my being "overly cautious". For 2009, how do I go about not being overly cautious? Does that mean I stop thinking and go for it? Hmnn.. I am now "overly analyzing" what "overly cautious" mean. I am wondering why people would tell me that being in a relationship -- you will have to be prepared to get hurt because that's a part of it. It got more confusing. People thinking that i don't want to get hurt. Well, yes of course... Been there and it wasn't a fun experience for a free spirit like me.
How long have I been single? To those who know me... yes.. it's been years. And it's not for lack of trying, you know. =) Me thinks that being out of a romantic relationship for years now, it's taking its toll... My friends are telling me to be nicer, be sweeter... Am I not nice? Am I not sweet? hehehehe... I am a very sweet person... It just have to be the right person. I can't go all sweet on just anybody I meet or else they get the wrong signals and then I've got bigger problems, right?
Anyway, last week I met with my 'classmate'. The 'classmate' I ranted about a few months ago. I'm crazy, i know! After being mad for about 10mins, i go meet him for coffee... Well, this is the 1st time we're meeting after 3 years so i just had to... and it was nice to see him. (to my friends with dirty minds thinking I'm going to blog about what we talked about, sorry!!! hahahaha) We talked about our current lives and everything we have missed about each other for the past 3 years. We really are friends i think. We know a lot about each other and I genuinely care about him. I hope he does for me too. But that 'classmate' thingy really is a deal breaker...
Enough of my 'classmate'. We have both gone our separate ways. He's good and I'm good. I am stupid but not that STUPID.
What else happened the past month. I think i had too much alcohol and smokes the last month so now I've got colds and haven't touched a cigarette for 6days. I think it should be on my new year's resolution. I'm still thinking about it though.
I am home now... the 1st weekend of 2009 and I got my place cleaned, my laundry to the the cleaners... good start for 09 huh? coz it's back to normal by Monday!!!
Me thinks this is going to be a good year and me also thinks that some things are worth waiting for...
happy new year to me...
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