“you always want what you can’t have”

I am not overweight and yet I have been telling myself to lose 10 lbs for the past 3 years. I have a skinny friend who has been forever trying to gain weight. The basics, right? I want to be taller, have longer and shapely legs so that mini skirts would look great on me. I want a smaller waist so that I can wear anything and not worry about all my fats showing. I want to have commercial worthy hair that flows down my back and would sway at my every move. I want… I want… I want…

If I will count the things I want to have, its endless. These are the stuff that would really be nice to have but I know that I just can’t have them. Well, maybe rebonding can give my hair the commercial worthiness I’m looking for but it’s going to cost me a lot. For the things we want to have, there’s a price to pay. But when we talk about things that we want, why do we always want the things that we can’t just have???

And speaking of wanting things that we just can’t have… How about when you like someone and that someone likes somebody else? Or when you know that someone likes you, you just know that you like someone else? It’s a tedious cycle. People love the idea of chasing something that’s very difficult to reach.

Take for instance, I know a situation where a girl has told an admirer a thousand times that she cannot counter his feelings with more than the confines of friendship and that the idea of “coupledom” for them is just impossible, ridiculous and hopeless. And yet the guy is still clueless on what impossible means. Isn’t that funny? You’ve been told right in your face that it’s not possible and yet you never give up. Well, some people really find it difficult to accept the fact that some things are not meant to be. Some people like to take chances, count the odds and measure the probabilities even if it’s blinking the warning sign right from the beginning.

When we take chances, isn’t it better to think that you’ve got an 80-20 odds? I mean I am not an avid fan of taking chances, well I maybe tried that once or twice but that took a lot of courage and thinking. But some people have enough audacity for an entire community. Can we still call that courage when it goes beyond boundaries? When do we consider having too much nerve questionable?

Hmnn… It’s amusing to think about it because we know people who have that kind of attitude, people who have the guts to go after what they want. And when I think about it, do I even have half of the courage they have to go after what I want? The only way to pass a test is to take the test, right?

It is not because things are difficult that we do not dare; it is because we do not dare that things are difficult. - Seneca